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Dear Lord.

Having kind of a bad day.  Writing isn't going so good and it might be that I have schizophrenia.  I talked with a counselor and he wants me to take a definite test.  I don't really know what to do about it and I know better than to talk about it through my regular name because I can't tell my friends and family yet.

But I've got to get it out.  I'm terrified.  I have no idea what I'm going to do if I'm diagnosed.  My uncle is schizophrenic and his medication can make him so loopy that it's like he's not even there.  I'm already starting to hear and see things that aren't there, mostly at night when it sounds like people are whispering in my ear or I see a man standing over my bed.  What do I do?  I'm so scared that I won't be able to go through with becoming a teacher.

I know this sounds really self-pitying, but I don't know what to do.  Honestly, I just need some help.

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